The past still lingering in my mind.

ya..its really hard 2 erase all the memories...
living in memories make me feel like u r just an illusion.
Are u ever existed in my life before?
yes..u were...but when i think about u..something come 2 my mind.
Is he really exist in my life???
Its just hard 2 believe. Maybe i'm still in denial stage..
denying what happen is just a waste of time in my life.
It bring nothing to me. But sometimes, I feel better when my mind thinking about it.


I always stay in the denial stage. But i know I shouldn't and I can't deny forever.
waiting for the time when I can go into the acceptance stage. 
In this stage, I will say "I'm ready for whatever comes."


For now..nothing much to say. Really...

pseudo-Insomnia

I dunno y but I dun feel like sleeping. the night very cold. As cold as my life.

Tonight is a full moon. Its really beautiful. How great God (Allah SWT) are. 

Actually I dun really have much to say. But I feel like typing and wasting my time. =p

yesterday was my first day for clinical posting after having terminal xm. 

Nothing special but still, I learned a lot of new knowledge. 

Anyway, it was quite tiring coz I've not been posted in general ward for quite a some time.

I supposed to sleep n wake up early but then, here i am typing n wasting my time. heee~

Just let me type a bit more...

I luv my life... I really luv it! Now, i started 2 learn how to appreciate my life for every second, minute, hour and day. Thinking about the past just make me feel sorrow n empty.

Look to the future is better eventhough we r not really clear about wat we r looking at. heee~

I wasted a lot of my time by surfing the net and sleep. The worse thing is.. I luv food very much!! hahaa..

I really luv food... i like to eat. but my weight already alarmed me that I should ctrl wat I eat. 

well balanced diet is enough.. but how balance my diet is when I'm eating "mi sedaap + munchy's biscuits + Lipton at night few hours before go to bed?? thats really terrible but it also nice though..hehehe

ar....its already 1:44am here. I think I should go to bed d.. my spongebob waiting 4 me to hug him. haha

I'll continue nxt time.. nite myself.. I luv U.....